Pit of memory

There are those people when you think of them your heart just go into emotional shock and you start complaining to God for taking them because they were just too close to your heart then anything in this world.I lost my dad a while ago in 2007 when i was still in high school and sometimes it feels like i have not got over his death because at times i would miss him so much like he went to some place that i will be able to see him in Christmas or New years, overall what i can say is that my Dad was an awesome father who made my life fun from my childhood until i reached my teenage years.at this age that i am in sometime you need that fatherly advise and knowing that its not available when you need it just disappoints.

You listen to people praising their fathers for their awesomeness in their lives and you think of how it would have been if he was here to spend time with you and teach you how to be a man with wisdom and a personality of a king and a father with so much love for everyone that is in one's heart.i have learned how to be my own man with my father in absentia because i grew up alone away from my family and in that time i have learned a great deal about life,also went through challenges that no one have to go through without people of wisdom around them to advise when required.i was able to conquer through them and see light in that manner it only gives you knowledge to be wise enough to advise people that will go through those challenges in life.

I sometimes ask myself how i was able to prosper on my own but i can see that something of greater power have enabled be to carry on fighting the good fight and to not give up in myself.I guess the at this moment the only thing that i have that gives me push is how i remember what my Dad did things and the love he gave and taught me to give to those that are close to my heart and respect that he had for life,because he over came mountainous challenges and he was able to come out on top.i remember his will to live and how his peers respected him and loved him because he was more than a friend to them but a brother that cared for them.

With the way i know myself i know all the qualities that made him the man he was,are there in me because i blend in nicely with my peers and be a brother to many without any intention other than to just care for the people around me.being with people from different backgrounds displaying the teachings of their fathers i am able to learn from them and be a perfect man if i may say so, hanging around elders with adequate wisdom as men and how they handle themselves in crowds and around important people.

But the overall effect that one should have on people is that of good statutes, a humble, caring, respecting and honorable man with class of his own that appreciates everyone for who they are and what they stand for.i learned that pride is a weakness and one looses the respect from people he is among and humbleness is a strength and magnet for people to give all their trust to you.

Keeping sane

My biggest friend and fan in the whole world is me because i can spend the whole day by myself and have those intense conversations and reflect on life and other things that matter to me. this way i put my life on a pedestal looking at what i do daily and if its awesome enough for me, i don't really care much about random people poking around my life and giving input in what they don't know. i do thing in extremely unique manner and having something that does not compliment my system of living.

i sometimes get comment like you are arrogant and selfish which i am not i just do things according to my sense compared to those that confuse me so its very hard to work on someone's idea.i only do things my way because that's the only way i know how to,i don't understand myself sometimes because i always surprise myself in many situations of my life.i know all things are risk to initiate because failure is inevitable in many situations but i choose to do so, that way i would be measuring my strengths and weakness because one can never measure their strength or weakness in things you excel in, in you sleep! there must be a total challenge that way you will know if you suck or can still excel in that aspect.

this is what everyone do because actually one can not live without consulting themselves sometimes, until you come that time when you are emotionally compromised and you need them bffs to step in to give you light.so in other words i am saying that i am not crazy just trust me and me only and there is no crime in doing that.so far in my life there is not much of damage in terms of dreams and my christian life, my faith growing each day which is what is important ultimately.
 

Losing something you love

I thought i had everything i wanted, something so precious that i wanted to share with the world but i was very wrong so time says.i was once told by a woman of wisdom who i encountered in my life in the past and she was very old but still took care of herself. she said there would be time in the future or now when the people who you love want to get out of your life and when that time arrives you must not be selfish towards what they want and don't stand in their way to prevent them from moving on with their lives. she said let them go because you love them enough to allow them do what they want, so i listened. what an incredible old wise woman i consider her now because what she said stack in my head and also made me make my decisions with order and guidance.

I loved this woman with all my heart and everything that is of my being but sometimes you notice thing in the eyes of your loved once that concerns you very much and since they don't want to talk about the you keep quiet  so that with time when they consider what is eating them away from you is! i thought to myself that things were still great since nothing has not been said to show that there is a problem of some sort. simple guy that i am thought that with the love that i have for her would be as great in her but that was not the case so i found out.i don't like them fights and weird ways of doing thing and sometimes i find myself very unique and unorthodox. i finally asked one question that was bothering me for a while and said:"My love are you happy in this relationship of ours? i mean its been 10 months already but you going astray every time i see you.she says with complete honesty so i asked of her, No i am not! because its boring!

It was like someone kidnapped me the first month we started seeing one another and performed a cardiology surgery and implanted a time bomb in my chest. when she said that the bomb exploded and just messed up my chest internally because it hurt thus far and i'm picking up all the pieces putting together. but the problem is that i love her and care for her even now and the love has the same intensity as the pain she gave me.so the pain cancels/musks the love and when i think of her i just feel nothing because i am numb.losing something you fency in this manner just mess things so much you just look at people who appreciate you and think they will do the same.only if there was a pill that could make all this go away only if.maybe i would feel better with time i always know how to pick them don't i? i hope she finds someone who would make her happy and show her the beauty of love.

I shall soldier on and find my path or maybe my destiny which awaits me.

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Wounded heart

Hurt come when your beloved is slowly slipping off

When the spark of that micro touch of your soul is no more

Wounded heart is a wondering mind that fights itself

For that love that is so dear but now lacking

Is there really the truth in this love? Or did she really stop

Caring because the love that was once there is no longer prevalent

Like before, what is happening to us? Are we not the same individuals

Who once lived in one another’s moments like identical twins by souls?

Love is really a heavy load on the mind like stress of murderous thoughts

And my love for you is like a platter that is only available to you

Like nature and its seasons so stable, patient for you only

I live every day in beautiful moments like i met you the day before

 

With love so pure like distilled drop of water on a transparent glass

Wounded heart is a heart that long for nourishment by your love

Which sometimes seems absent, you are that women i longed for

In my childhood because your presence really vibrates my soul

Heritage (Setso)

This public holiday is one of respected datesin South africa where every citicizen of this country remember their own culture and it's importance to him or her.when this date is near one will notice the clothing people wear to show which culture of the rainbow they belong to! because it really is a rainbow when everyone wear the colours of their cultural clothing.  one will see women wear beautiful clothes with different colours on each cloth the wear, also the food that are prepare to comemorate the existance of those that have passed on and left us this knoledge that is loved by everyone in the country white, india, coloured or black.this is a celebration of the beginning of the languages that are spoken by all people of South Africa, one will be amazed of the rich history between cultures and languages that are in this beautiful country(SA). this is important day for those western young thatonly grew up speaking english and their parents are African in the origing in the country. they learn the roots properly and also celebrate their existance and also appreciate the day but because the youth of today dont really care much about their roots most celebrate this day with alcohol, which to the elders its a lot of disrespect.

Places I’ve been

Firstly by birth I am from the greenest province I know called Limpopo and most of the agriculture is from this province. This province is a beautiful place that I know and respect very much, in it there is a place called Mokopane and I’m from a small place called Bakenburg (Leyden) in Mokopane. Then in 2010 we moved to Mahwelereng 5 minutes outside Mokopane. In 2004 I moved to Johannesburg where I was to continue my high school career in 2005 the following year in an area called Boksburg until I finished my high school career. From what I remember is that high school was fun because I took part in almost everything that was done there, I was a sports man in which I did athletic, rugby and in cultural activities like eisteddfod, revue, Oscar evenings and maths competitions. When it comes to Gauteng and Limpopo I can’t say its places I’ve been because they are my home provinces in which I know them off by heart. Warm bath is a great place to check out because that place is too good, love the setup of the area because it is a place where you are spoiled for choice accommodation  if you want a place that  you would want to bond with you family without any disturbance I would say warm bath is a place for you.

Now Mpumalanga is one of the provinces that I went away for visits and that is a very intriguing province, when I went there I was in a place called sabie what a great place indeed. One wakes up to the refreshing sounds of rivers and birds that make such beautiful morning melodies, with a breeze of fresh air. The in environment is so moist like no other place I know high mountainous route and meanders, as we travelled that place we drove in the mist for about an hour and a half full of excitement. That trip was amazing to me and the lodge we acquired was too great because the food was awesome from breakfast to dinner.

When I went to North West province man it’s even nicer even though serenity of their land is not the same as the one of MP, but the lodge that I went to was way beautiful than that of sabie. The lodge we went to is called lesedi cultural village, they have history of all our national cultures and languages from their time of existence. I enjoyed having African dishes they served during dinner and a world class breakfast. Sometimes to travelling is relaxing to the mind and learning about thing while on that trip, which I think really support the saying you can never say I’ve learned enough because you learn everyday it can be intellectual and learning a new taste of dishes you already know for that matter.

 Lesedi cultural village is a great place for anyone who is interested in learning more about the roots of their culture and then i would recommend this place, it would be for field trip of kinder garden, primary school scholar and any adult that is looking to have fun learning about their culture because they have these plays and storytelling sessions about what happened in the past which I found them very insideful. This made me realise that some people out there still treasure their cultures and they even go one step further by learning about other cultures so that they can keep them alive only for the mere fact that cultures are collapsing and dying. So if you’re that person like me then this is a place to be at truly South Africa culture right there and i guess even the name just gives it away.

I can’t really say much about Free State because when I went there it was only by passing and for now I can say the city looked great and the weather is cold there because we almost froze to death but overall that made me even like it more.  The people are very friendly in the area I’ve been even though the time when I was there was not for leisure but I would recommend because it looked great, which means possibilities are high that I might go back and this time for fun. So what i can say is that Free state be on a look out for Hlogi because he might be around anytime soon from today.

Now I am left with several places then after that its international roaming, I guess this is a good plan for my future travelling goals.