My Woman

I sit each day in duress visualizing
you're arrival in my life like a long
distance train, i worry that choices
i make each day might not be good
enough because i don't know you

i sit every night asking myself if my living
years aren't reaching their peak because
i want you quickly and everyday is harder
without the knowledge of your where about
because i know you have the love i need
and your beauty is incomparable

each woman i see i mistaken her for you
i pray each day because the only way
i can feel your presence is through that
spiritual bond we share from heavens
i worried myself because i have looked
and i cant seem to find you my woman

Princess of my life and the love that is
osmotic among us i feel is immense
i can feel you each time i go to sleep
that you are near and these days i wish
my heart could be the gps for your love

i wait with fear because i desire you with
every fiber of my body and the wait is slowly
driving me into solitude and without you
i feel like i am going senile.  

29.07.2013 SURPRISE!

I have been to surprise parties around my place whenever i had time to just have fun with people i spend most of my days with never have i ever thought that one day that person would be me.but the day of the 29th was a day i never expected that i would celebrate my birthday because of my school work which i didn't get to present the following day like i thought i would do.on the birthday i actually wrote a test the whole morning which i hope i did well because i really felt like i did something in that test.

Anyways yes i attended the classes the whole day and got to a point where i felt like i was going through some depression because of the exhaustion i was under without sleeping the previous day(Sunday).so the plan was the birthday was to be celebrated the following day after i have presented and wrote my test, but on the other side of campus things were not going according to my plan for the evening.it started with a call from a friend of mine whom i previous have helped with couple of research papers and her thanks was suppose to be a meal of anyway i want to eat from the last semester, so i answer the call from her she says:"i am from work i would like to take you out like i promised and the time couldn't be better because it is your birthday" not knowing that she is a decoy to make sure that i am being watched so that i could be controlled.

So i thought so going to check if the choir has left because it was getting late and me being a leader i got out of my place to campus and when i got there people were not there like i thought i would find them instead i found my colleagues just talking about music and other things which i was not interested because i went there to look for Hlogi(my best friend)to go with me to celebrate my birthday with the girl that i thought was going to buy me a meal like we spoke. Hlogi being himself paid for the meals since he said he will get me something for my day that was how he was meeting his promise i guess.

something got my attention on our way to mcdonalds which i didn't mention which was the frequent phone calls that he was receiving which took them behind us.i didn't mind that at all because it was my birthday lol so we went in and ate then Hellen(the decoy)deployed make sure that i am controllable, said we should leave because it was getting cold so me being me i said ok, then we went into the campus expecting nothing extraordinary to occur up until things didn't make sense.like see Kgwedi with a camera and his sister saying things that didn't make sense.i still was too gullible this day very much so.i don't know what happened there really because i saw signs but didn't give them enough attention to them like i would some other times.

up until i opened the boardroom door of horror land where i saw people sitting in the dark and i got very shivery that i have never have been in my life and they just screamed surprise,and all i wanted was just to run away because that was just too much to take in and without any expectation that made me so vulnerable that i stopped the myself from tearing up in front everybody because really, that was just touching seeing so many people whom i thought they went home being there singing for me and as i write now i feel some emotions that i don't think are expressible.

ever since in my life have i had such a big party like the one i had this year and i shall call that birthday a birthday present from heavens.i really would love to thank all those who took part in organizing that special day to be AWESOME AND GRANDEUR.i thank you from the deepest chambers of my heart and i've learned something about you guys that you are not only my friends but my family.for that present that you gave me only assured me that having you guys in my life is a Lehlogonolo (Blessing) and i now see why i was given this name it because i was suppose to meet you so that i could be meeker than i am and more.i thank the great God our lord to bless your hearts to continue loving and bring good things in your lives because you have powers to change peoples' lives and turn them into glamourous events.

I LOVE YOU ALL BECAUSE YOU ARE THE PRESENT I GOT THAT I APPRECIATE MORE THAN THE PARTY YOU THREW FOR ME.I HOPE WHAT WE HAVE WILL NOT FADE BUT GROW TO BE GREATER THAN WHAT IT IS.

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